Passing ghosts.

I was digging through Facebook for the first time in 2 years. So many emails, so many passed opportunities at parties and get togethers with the people I once loved so much.

I saw this photo of my friend David and got sad because we were nerds. Nerds together (with our friends) with sexy tech talk and drinking green tea instead of alcohol hahaha I was always jealous of his cameras! But he's the hardest working man I know, so he deserves it all.


I look at these photos and have completely forgotten my OLD self. The extremely outgoing girl who was out and never home.

It's strange seeing people I grew up with now, still hanging together, getting married, having babies...just having a good time growing older.

I NEED this old self back. I want to wipe clean the last few years and just move on.

While rummaging through old FB messages I found this:



haha I was spotted.
You never know who's watching,
& apparently I was watching my life pass by, forgetting about the foundations of what made me who I am today.

I'm tired of the Internet.
(and how I use it)
I miss my family & friends.

I know it may seem like I'm depressed but I'm not.
I'm in a state I can't explain.
Like a caterpillar in a cocoon waiting.

I changed my Facebook picture to this:



YUMMY books.

a pointless ego trip.

If you feel entitled I TITLE you a loser.

I'm so tired of being surrounded by selfish egos and desperate criers. They're everywhere lately! *play scary, heart beating in Poe's floor, music. In reality, we don't deserve anything more than the next guy. Just take the pity walk by yourself and dance at the end of the road. Oh my, I'm such a bitch ^_^ I just stress over people too much because I want everyone to be happy. I've come to realize that this is impossible. Moving on.

People can only hope & do. So doo-do all over this place called Earth.

Wordle Wall of Random

Upon reading JohnnyDurham19's blog post I had no idea TweetStats had a Wordle function (shown below) of the top words you use on Twitter. If you don't know, I use Twitter more than anything else I update. It's good for my A.D.D. mindset.

http://www.twitter.com/jabazzy ADD ME ;)



I love how some of the words randomly create sentences that explain my life right now...

"people feel hell days"
"make time happy"
"shit won't know life"
"ben hate" <-- HAHAHA

"hope people"

Love it!

By the way, WOW I haven't posted here in 2 months and I know I never post anywhere really these days but I'm still thinking of you all. Life just happened.

<3