Monday, March 30, 2009

Passing ghosts.

I was digging through Facebook for the first time in 2 years. So many emails, so many passed opportunities at parties and get togethers with the people I once loved so much.

I saw this photo of my friend David and got sad because we were nerds. Nerds together (with our friends) with sexy tech talk and drinking green tea instead of alcohol hahaha I was always jealous of his cameras! But he's the hardest working man I know, so he deserves it all.

I look at these photos and have completely forgotten my OLD self. The extremely outgoing girl who was out and never home.

It's strange seeing people I grew up with now, still hanging together, getting married, having babies...just having a good time growing older.

I NEED this old self back.
I want to wipe clean the last few years and just move on.

While rummaging through old FB messages I found this:

haha I was spotted.
You never know who's watching,
& apparently I was watching my life pass by, forgetting about the foundations of what made me who I am today.

I'm tired of the Internet.
(and how I use it)
I miss my family & friends.

I know it may seem like I'm depressed but I'm not.
I'm in a state I can't explain.
Like a caterpillar in a cocoon waiting.

I changed my Facebook picture to this:

YUMMY books.


ben robot. said...

i agree. out of this shit hole.

JohnnyDurham19 said...

break free, caterpillar.
you're going to make a beautiful butterfly.


AngelWest said...

Why cant I leave an anonymous comment on here so I can lash out in pain without retribution?

xnightskyx said...

i like that facebook pix

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Nicholas said...

I know how you feel. Lately, the internet seems... I don't have a word... different? I enjoy real life more these days.
Maybe we have to evolve and just use the internet for communication that enriches our lives instead of browsing endlessly through yt videos of kittens falling asleep :D
I think I'm ready to grow up and grow out.

Hanne said...

I feel it too.. And I think it has a great deal to do with the fact that spring is here, I feel like crawling out of my wintry cave (the internet) and get back to real life.


zzzzzzane said...

WONDERFUL! << to your thoughts and pictures and finding yourself.