Long over due blog + new years

So whoa, I never blog because I'm just so lazy. Lame excuse I know, but I also feel that I don't want to over-share my life. Some things are sacred. If that makes sense.

Right now I am bored so I'll blog.

Bored waiting for the dryer to finish up. I'm doing my laundry finally because I need clothes for when I ring in the new year downtown. I'm looking forward to this evening!

and second WHOA, I can't believe another year has passed (everyone says that). But it's another year on YT! Crazy town! Let's see how much I am around this year...

Soooo I promised ages ago to show you my completed painting for my cousin. To be honest, I only finished it a day before Christmas, because again, I am lazy. Judge me :p



Sadly, I did not have the chance to give my cousin this present because of snow. The roads were bad. Christmas was crappy this year and it didn't feel like the holiday at all. Mostly because I didn't get to see my close relatives, and that cousin, which I only see once a year. I have gotten really sad after typing this. Blah, there's no point in getting sad about things you can't change and at least I know they're alive and happy.

I think I heard the dryer ring. YAY...time to goooo.

I hope everyone has a HAPPY NEW YEAR and you're spending it with ones you love.

*cheers*
<3

P.S. I realize I sound like a lazy sloth while I typed this. I am not ashamed! *hides*. By the way, real sloth's are scary looking. Just making another useless observation.



Looks like my ex ^_^ jk!

If you understand this. I truly love you. Me wants. Also, thanks for all the comments on my last post. You are wonderful fluffy creatures of the planet. Lastly, BYOB = *sighs*.

<3

Arting: Work in Progress

So I don't feel compelled to make a video this week (or for a while) because I’d rather paint. I’m working on 5 small sized paintings for my cousin’s Christmas present; something I’ve promised I’d do for her for a while.

The series is a bit cliché (by a bit I mean a lot), with a Paris theme, but we went there together in 2004 and I wanted to work with our memories together. I LOVE FRANCE.

As you can see I’m pretty much blank on my approach for the second canvas. It’s a work in progress. I have a couple ideas but I’ll keep you posted on it when it’s completed.

To be honest with you, I’m not too happy with what I’ve done because I was fighting with the painting technique for a while. They look a bit cartoonish, and I was used to painting more realistically in the past. I’m a bit rusty now though, in all drawing abilities, and I NEED to work on that. So if giving up videos for a while means doing so. Then so be it. I get bored very easily though, so expect me back sooner than later. I just want to put my focus elsewhere at this moment. For now, painting will be at the forefront of my creative endeavours. It’s my first step on regaining bits of my former self.

Be well everyone.

List of Life + Wiiiiiii

1. I wrote a long post but deleted it. Sometimes it's just nice to write it out, like writing out a math problem to better understand the thought process. For now though, those thoughts will remain in the vault. Moving on...

2. I hate talking about shit like this because it's very self-indulgent, but I want a new Wii game. I'm getting bored of my Mario Kart. You can't blame me for wanting one. I've been playing the same game for months. I want these games (below), but there's no way I can afford them right now. Hence why I have been playing the same game:


3. If you can't tell, I enjoy puzzle games the most. Yet I am still horrible at Sudoku.

4. My feet want to dance on a cloud.

5. My life needs a makeover. No money can buy that.

6. I love YOU.

7. I bid farewell.

8. Silence.

Youtube LIVE thoughts

Youtube LIVE was meh, burp, blah. I could of done without.

but...this picture of Jaaaaaaa aka Lisa Nunes [William Sledd is hilarious] & sailme90 makes me happy! If you don't know, William called Julia "Lisa" like a fool.

I can safely say I look forward to these two's videos all the time.

Also, the Diamond Factory (ala LisaNova) worked the whole damn event. She made her face known. Well done on the marketing and costume changes.


Again, the event was nothing too exciting, and mostly boring for the most part but nothing ever went horribly wrong; which looks good on YT. I just wanted to see people I adore in the audience and background. A group chat with the lovers via MSN (old school) made watching the event bearable.


In Youtube We Trust [lies]

Why am I writing this post? :D

If you really want to know what I'm thinking. I'm thinking the event was just some ego jerk circle. There I said it! <3

in heaven + wall-e

So CSI:NY is playing ALL damn DAY (marathon) 24/7 on TV and it's absorbing my life. It's an addiction. I've started crushing hardcore on Eddie Cahill (shown right). I don't like him in this picture though; doesn't he look like Frankenstein in it?

Anyways, I also got WALL-E today for a late birthday present!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm soo excited. TO be honest I haven't even watched it yet but I've heard great things, plus it reminds me so much of BENROBOT, and who doesn't want to be reminded of a robot friend?


That's all for now. Today I am happy.

Peace out world.
I love you so.

P.S. I love my Sesame Street PJ's

I'm such a fecking kid.

In closing, people have to be sad in order to be happy. Truth.

Video please.

I hardly ever want to make videos but why is it when I actually want to make a video I can't?

I badly want to make a video, especially thanking people who sent me messages of love on my birthday because it meant the world to me. Also, Johnny (JohnnyDurham19) tagged me in left-handed tag, and I shall try my best to do that one too. Johnny IS an amazing person to talk to, laugh with, discuss with...true story.

See the thing is, I don't make videos when people are home and my sister's university is on strike, meaning she's home all damn day. *shakes fist to the world.

I hope things will change soon but for now CSI:NY has already started! I have to gooooo...

Much Love <3

blank.

I don't even know anymore.

I think too much.

It always happens.

Glo worm of love.

I just had a thought (reoccurring)...

We tend to take our friends for granted.

On that note, thisismysongthough, made a video inspired by one of my tweets (twitter) & it blew me away. As you can tell I have been thinking a lot about friendship lately. As I get older I become very selective of who I trust. Important milestones are under way. Oh age.

Feeling numb & new.

I could sleep ALL DAMN DAY and not move. I am both very physically and emotionally exhausted from the countless hours of standing, moving around, dealing with (asshole) people, and the lack of sleep I’ve gotten from volunteering for "Planet in Focus". Yet I still enjoyed it and plan on volunteering again.

Also, It feels weird not commenting back to people on my last video since I always try too but Youtube can wait until this paralyzing feeling wears off.

Finally, the heater has been fixed (almost one week later), as of today. Yay for warminess. Speaking of coldness, I am supposed to wash my newly dyed hair with cold water (to maintain the colour) but HELL NO! No cold water for me in this weather. Therefore, the colour will fade. Meh, there are bigger problems like people dying. I had the chance to watch some films at the festival; very uplifting and sad. When I'm complaining about stupid shit (like my hair), I try to remember what I have...which is a lot more than some, even if I don't have that much.

I have to close my eyes for a bit. Much Love.

In need of a warm hug.

So today was the first official sighting of snow; tough it was light and more like rain it still foreshadowed what is to come. I must admit that though I really enjoy the snow and cold I only really do so with warm things near by, such as a warm coffee, fireplace, jacket and/or cuddle. We're (I) spoiled that way.

Unfortunately, the heater in my house has broken down and for some stupid reason the air conditioner was on for over 3 hours. I think my dad thought heat would magically appear...ugh.

I'm way too cold for the Internet and doing Youtube stuff today, as commenting or watching videos so I shall sleep soon, but I did get this comment exceed code tonight which made me smile with irony. I want warminess. Anyways, I have to be up at 6:00am tomorrow. Yay!. Bye lovelies. Oh and I want to thank everyone who leaves me comments on my ramblings. I really am flattered and feel the love.

Be well everyone!

I'm off to snuggle warm in my bedsheets.

P.S. I really want one of these:

Like a fat kid eating cake.

I decided to change my layout here. I am quite content. Anyways...

So one of my loyal subscribers who has always been good to me, PM'ed me and told me I was getting fat (excuse me while I pause to laugh), which is probably true since I eat like a fat cow with no worries in the world. Actually, I eat more than ever before so excuse me while I eat a cookie while typing this and gaining the 40 pounds I have lost since last year back. Also, let me post a picture of a yummy carrot cake and tart for all you skinny health people. I had milk with the tart, that's healthy enough right?! haha no. Honestly though, I'm not dying and I'm happy, and that's all that matters. I just think it's funny that people will go out of their way to call you fat out of "concern".

In other news, my grandma is in the hospital which has put me in a weird mental state, but we can't live thinking people will live forever, because they won't. I'm more sad at the fact that she is or may be suffering. Suffering is a part of life but so is sadness. Therefore, I am sad.

Oh and I bought a headband and sometimes my camera works and doesn't. It's very picky :D

Love!

Fashion without a camera.

This is a completely self-indulgent post because I want this dress really badly. Like now. I'm on the search! It's gorgeous.



Speaking of fashion, Billi (billilovesmargot) and I share a common interest in fashion and it is what inspired (Nylon) my birthday video for him.



Finally, I'm having camera problems. My video footage is out of sync with the audio and it skips. I hope it's not really broken because I can't afford a new one. I guess no videos for a while. We'll see.

Sit tight and take care.

<3

Simple update.

People! It's October, whaaaaat?!

Times are a changing, but remaining somehow.

By the way, I've traded a hobby with another.

Sometimes when you love something to death it gets boring. If there's no passion in what you do, don't bother. Breaks are nice.

Also, I've forgotten how much I missed doing photography. I used to heavily do it before Youtube. Obviously the photo of me is complete crap since I couldn't get an angle, but I found it weird just to post photos of a 'random' guy :D



The photos were taken on the day I went to a book fair (Sunday). I'm reading more too. Books are sexy.

<3


Be well everyone.

Green.

You Are Emerald Green

Deep and mysterious, it often seems like no one truly gets you. Inside, you are very emotional and moody - though you don't let it show. People usually have a strong reaction to you... profound love or deep hate. But you can even get those who hate you to come around. There's something naturally harmonious about you.

What Color Green Are You?

Like Billi

[10:43:09 PM] ben says: it seriously made my bday the bestest ever
[10:43:10 PM] Jase says: That's why when we were talking and you thought I was in another world
[10:43:13 PM] Jase says: I was editing
[10:43:14 PM] Jase says: :D
[10:43:17 PM] ben says: ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
[10:43:18 PM] ben says: hahahhaha
[10:43:25 PM] ben says: i was like, why isnt she talking tomeeee
[10:43:50 PM] Jase says: I had better things to do, sheesh
[10:43:54 PM] ben says: :D
[10:43:54 PM] ben says: i love you
[10:44:09 PM] Jase says: i love you to bits and body pieces.

AND THAT'S ALL I NEEDED ALL DAY.
I love me some benrobot.

MOVIES!!!

I go to the Toronto International Film Festival (TIFF) each year and I love it with a passion.

http://tiff08.ca

I went to watch a french film called "The Sea Wall" with a friend I hadn't seen in 4 months. It was really good and the lead actor was smoking hot, which was a plus.

I want to sex movies for a living.

There was a photo booth where you only pay $2 so heck yeah! We also got temp tattoos, I have the FOR THE LOVE OF FILM one on right now.



Support the arts if it makes you feel good.

<3

I'm a weirdo?

Why is everything so weird?

Meh.

So I finally made a video and it felt good to vlog again.

Here's a picture, where I parody a video of Kate's [katereadsbooks], in which I smear the worst tasting and smelling non-toxic paint ever:



I wonder why I do these things? Oh right, it's fun.

Also fun to scare people who think I'm actually a mental case. Or maybe I'm just one. Either way, I'm just being me. Scary thought I know.

Also today, Alan [fallofautumndistro] topped TOOT TOOT as the "Most Unexpected Viral Video of '08". TOOT was definitely unexpected and it became something I never could of imagined. It blows my mind and I'm ever so grateful for the responses I've received.

If people think the hate I was talking about, in my last video, only came from my featured video, it wasn't. TOOT is 50%+ "hater" comments and it fills my heart with joy.

I don't like to discuss TOOT too much with people and here I will end this. I think sometimes it's better NOT to know why or how. You will never know the purpose of the video and to be honest, I don't really know either.

Love you and thanks for reading <3

5 months later...

I made a new friend today ;)

Also, lately I've been enjoying the sun and going to the park to ride the swings; enjoying the wind through my hair. Maybe I should get back to making videos. Its been a while, but I'm just not in the SWING of things lately. See what I did there? :D

Photoshop fakeness:



I love life...

Nakedness thoughts.

So a few clips of my "Naked Vlog Tag" video made it into Nalts newest video, along with some of my other fine friends. How do we feel about this? I'm not sure. I know this has become his style, of poking fun at other tubers, but should he ask us first if he can use the clips? He also makes money off them too through monetization. Or does this just bring the community together.

Thoughts?

More Youtube Randomness.

There's a lot of interesting people out there.

Random Youtubeness.

The new MRirian, but she actually talks...English too wheeee

Keep feeding that hand.

I went to subscribe to Katdennings today, since I love her videos and I have no idea why her subscript disappeared from my box but anyways, I got this feature for "Recommended Channels" when I did. So strange; I didn't know channels had TAGS now. Obviously they're paid partners being recommended, I wonder why mmmmmm *rolls eyes.

I guess auto-refreshing isn't good enough anymore.

I wonder who I'd be compared to.

JB.

THE BEST BAND EVER! (?)
sarcasm, what?



Dangit, I'm getting so old.

80th Academy Awards.

Though it seems cheesy, I love watching the Oscars. I laugh, I cry, it inspires me to try.

Highlights:
- When 98 year old, Robert Boyle, received an honorary award. His speech made me cry, plus his feeble body standing up there, with such strength and conviction is inspiring.
- When Marion Cotillard won for Actress in a Leading Role; her French accent was hot plus some of the lines she said were funny yet touching.
- The pure shock of music/movie duo Glen Hansard and Marketa Irglova, who won for best song called "Falling Slowly". This made me cry the hardest. They filmed the movie with a small budget and two handy cams!

It is behind the glitz and glamour that someone can realize that it is possible to be and do much more than the limitations we often set for ourselves.

Please never let the passion die.

Huh?

Was anyone paying attention to her tutorial?



...

She didn't even do a good job.

Vlog notes.

The Energeristic Vlog.

I started talking about my bloody hair then went off topic, as always.

Pretty much a pointless video.

A few notes:

1. Should I post videos like this one on a second channel instead?

2. I love my boyfriend, and he’s not cheap or abusive. I’m more abusive then him.

3. Energeristic is not a real word.

4. I have way too much energy today, someone punch me in the face.

I went from being blah yesterday to a crack whore.

xxox.

Game time.

I like this game:

http://www.smart-kit.com/games/jigsaw/

The goal is to create a whole image with the characters. You can rotate the game pieces by using your arrow keys. Have fun!

Tidbit of the Day #2.

I look like a sweaty mango.


wtf?
I'm eating an orange right now.

Does anyone care?

I just finished having a 3 hour chat and YouTube marathon of Most Haunted (obviously a program about haunted areas) with Maddox. Scary business and I won't be able to sleep now. However, I never thought in my life that I would have such strong connections with some of the people I've met on this crazy little site. It boggles and uplifts me. I love the community though I get flack and criticism from a lot of people I know in my "real" life (whatever real means these days).

Since I know she'll see this, she has been warned; she's knows about it, I'm not a psycho (???) people:

Does anyone else think that Skype pwns MSN? I do.

Tidbit of the Day.

Maddoxhardcore says: too much/too littlle in the brain?
Jase says: too much of too little


That sentiment keeps ringing in my mind.

Boredom strikes again.

This is what I do in sheer boredom. Say hello to the Buddy Bodies.

If you could name each character what would they be?
Which one if your favourite and why?

Change.

I'm bored, but I shouldn't be bored.
I should be doing things, but I'm not.
I'm over it.

So in my boredom I have decided to revamp this page. It was fun making the banner, because I haven't done graphics in a while.

I don't know why all my crap always becomes pink because I don't really consider myself girly at all. I mean my bedroom is all dark shady blues, it looks like a boys room and I always wear black and brown clothing. I shall investigate this strange matter in my mind.

speedyconkiwi + blogspot = jabazzy always has to comment, so I need this new account

So this biyatch from Germany, whom goes by the name Kiwi has moved blogs. I wanted to test out if I have a blogger account since I'm already signed up to Gmail, which obviously worked because I'm here. So maybe I'll blog, probably I won't.

Kiwi you have tortured me with another online social network.
Haha I still love you madly *muah